''It really weighs heavily on my mind, especially in the first half of the year. Especially on the road. Just when you're alone in your hotel room. When I'm here, I have my girlfriend Bella and my dogs and stuff. You feel more comfortable. I'm a lot better now. That was the biggest hurdle I've been trying to overcome. These last 15 games, I feel like I've really found that drive, that passion again. I'm starting to realize what the dream was again, like when I and my dad hung out. How proud he was � and still would be � so I'm really trying to turn the corner.''